You tried to erase me.

I was written in ink.

The blind anger makes it difficult to think.

Dripping whiteout from his angry hands.

As it smudges the life written from the pen in my hand.

Did you really believe this was all for the best?

Its not making things better.

You’re just making a mess.

So keep my green notebook hidden from the world.

Its under the bed where memories unfurled.

It has all my secrets my hopes and my dreams

Of living a life with you and me.

you're so close-mouthed.

im an open book.

i don't understand why you won't let someone in.

are you afraid? i'm afraid.

you hurt me.

you never let me in after all of this. it's so weird. i don't understand it.

why would you hurt me so much? all i did was love you. did you just want to see me cry? your so angry. but why? you just want to be mad at the world but.......you dont have to be. we had so many good times. it seems likes youve forgotten them all. i wish i could help you. i want you to smile. you dont even want me around. i will always love you. but you just want me out of your life. its like your trying to erase me. but i was written in ink. i hope you don't find any white-out. but you might stumble upon it. and i'll be a blank page in that tattered green notebook under my bed filled with hidden thoughts and quiet secrets.

you changed so suddenly. so change back.

wow so im sitting here just chillin on the comp then i decide lets go see whats goin on in xanga and i read my last post.

i hope he remembers that. and all of the good times we've had.

i dont want him to throw all of that away just because of a fight.

i still love him.......

i am happy :]

i love william marinos

i am so fucking tired of being used.

i am so fucking tired of it!

carlos didn't even care about me and ahhh!!!!! damnnit!!

why the fuck did i just let him do whatever he wanted with me? why didn't i just say no?? why can't i say no???

i'm not a fucking easy whore.

so quit treating me like one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that's not what i want to be or become.

and thats not want i want people to think i am! ...especially this one person....

these are my standards or morals (yes i broke them but these are them)

i am NOT going to do ANYTHING with you if we are not dating. i will NOT be your friend w benifits. i don't ever want to be taken advantage of and just used for this shit ever again. you know what i want? i want a guy that cares about me and that respects me and loves me. and he wants me to be his girlfriend and we go out and he says i'm always on his mind and i tell him i can't stop thinking about him...and every moment would be so meaningful because we care about each other. NOT just "getting some"

mr. personn the more i talk to you the more i realize that i am falling into "like" with you. your friends say that you like me......so i asked you and you said your confused about it. i wish you would just say yes! camille i like you alot and i talk about you all the time and i want to be with you! why don't you just say that?? pleasee!!